Transformed From Fearful to Strong
During our marriage, I was terrified of my now ex-husband. He told me I was crazy, delusional, irrational, unsupportive, vindictive, and needed medication. There were times he wouldn’t allow me to talk to or hug our children. He trapped me and my children in a room while he kicked walls, knocked over furniture, and screamed profanities at me – because I was comforting my daughter who was recovering from surgery and he didn’t want me near her. My ex’s standing joke with our children was that someday they were going to have to visit me at a mental institution. He told me if I would just “back down”, everything would be fine.
“I have been transformed from fearful to strong”
Despite being a well-educated, successful, middle class woman from an affluent county, I had absolutely no idea that I was in an abusive relationship. I was completely broken, convinced that I was hopelessly unlovable and defective and that everything was my fault. My counselor helped me realize that I was in an abusive relationship and I credit him with saving my life. SamaraCare’s reduced cost care allowed me to continue to see my counselor during a very contentious two year custody battle. In what can only be described as a miracle, my counselor’s guidance and support helped me truly love and accept myself during this most challenging season of my life. I have been transformed from fearful to strong. From paralyzed to emboldened. From hopeless to optimistic. From victim to empowered. The butterfly effect of SamaraCare’s support of me cannot be quantitatively measured, but I am honored to witness its far reaching influences every single day.
I am now better equipped to help my children as they continue to process and heal. Our home is calm and safe, filled with laughter and joy and play and giggles and smiles and hugs and kisses. Beyond my children, my journey of healing and growth has positively impacted the lives of my friends, family, and co-workers. I would not be the person I am today without these experiences and without my counselor’s guidance and support. I cannot express the depth of my gratitude..
